i'm trying something new. and i'm trying to keep at it. cos there is just so much i want to share. of how i feel, what i've seen, what song i've just heard, what i need, what i'm lusting for. haha.

fuck i'm so sleepy -.- and i'm only like a quarter way through my eu jr essay. gah. -yawns- cup of coffee, can of diet coke, and still not working. this is bad.

i think too often ppl take for granted what is constantly there. you see but you don't look. you look but you don't appreciate, or perhaps care. and its painful. its the feeling of transparency.

there are certain roads where there are no u-turns. like a highway. go up, and you can never turn back. even if you try to get off the highway, you can never go back to the same road, but rather you get on a different path, that instead of taking you onwards like the highway would have, leaves you going around in circles in the same area. wasting fuel, wasting time, but not getting anywhere. and then when you finally get back on the highway, you find that you've missed this whole chunk of time where everyone has moved on, moved beyond you. and all you've got left is this empty feeling of loneliness and being a stranger in a strange world.

so like jay chou sings.. let go, so that you can walk on further